Teletubbies, reminisce

Teletubbies was one of the cartoon characters that accompanied me through my childhood years.

LOL i'm still laughing at this cute video up there. Aren't they cute? =) Childish yet lighthearted.

I LOVE THEIR FOOD MACHINES! THEY ARE SO COOL! LOLOL

Teletubbies~ teletubbies~

say eh-oh~

EH-OH~!!!!!

LOLOLOLOLLLLLLLLLLL

ok enough of teletubbiessss~ neth is asking me to fuck off ):

went down to 850 just now to meet neth and help him paste his satio's screen protector.

satio is so heavy and big~~ ok not like i never see satio before =.=

helped him to paste the screen protector. it was a tough process because there's no cloth provided in the package, the surrounding was dark.

but i still managed to paste it~ neth told me its a bit offside at the bottom. LOL SORRY! =/

went home, bathe and downloaded the 6p for all modules.

I'M GOING TO STUDY TOMORROW!

Kh is sick again. having headache~ why is he always sick? =(

it must be the weather. they went some hot places today, so yup~ hopefully he's fine tomorrow as he's working.

recalled many things just now while looking at our photos.

saw yanting's photo and recalled that we called her as our daughter. LOLOL

he will always go 'eh why you never teach her properly? see lah she like this, like that'.

then i will go 'she's also yours ok! you teach lah!'.

LOL OK RETARDED.

i love to disturb him~ <33>

i still remember there was once i called him 'sister' and he got pissed off =/

his expression when he kept asking me if the necklace he bought is nice~ i'm evil enough to just give him a playful smirk. LOL

his signs of jealously over weijian. he will spam me with msgs when i go over to jiaming's house because he knows weijian will be there~

Tiff makes us grow stronger.

had a tiff with him last night but was resolved after awhile.

basically, i've been looking for him since noon but he was sleeping and his phone was turned off.

i only managed to find him at night like 9.30pm?

i got pissed off when he raised his voice at me because i dont know he was driving. moreover, the reception was like crap =.=

i hung up the phone and texted him telling him i wont call anymore since i'm disturbing him.

he called me when i was reaching home and told me he's driving and halfway the conversation, he almost hit a car.

i totally regretted for picking a quarrel with him.

ok i shall stop before the entry turns mushy~ =/

NIGHT PEEEEPO!

........

Everything is beyond my control. I can't do anything to change the fact anymore.

Blame on myself that i didn't express myself well. I wanted a break, not a break for good.

Thinking that after things die down, everything will be fine again.

I miss the long chatting with you. Bombing you with my crap, happiness and sadness.

I thought i found someone similar as you. But i was wrong. Only surface similarities.

I thought by doing so, I can be your friend again, with another identity.

I was wrong. So wrong.

I knew the outcome is going to be like that. I still went for it.

I didnt underestimate you =)

I got exposed, still.

Past ends with a big Dot

one year ago, this period of time was my lowest peak of my life at 18. i broke up with a Him that i treated better than how i treat myself. Unfortunately, he isn't the one that walks my life with me. We broke up because of pressures coming from almost everywhere. Friends, family, etc.

I'm a person who treasures every relationship and is soft hearted enough to give a jerk at least 4 chances because i thought he would change for the better. The period of time spent with him was totally awesome. To think that giving him chance after another would bring back more of the awesome 1 month, but no. He killed me, literately.

Knowing my weakness is by treating me a little better, i'll think that its all worth to sacrifice, doing things just to make-it-work. However, I was so wrong. He isn't that kind of person who appreciates what you did for him. He took it all for granted.

I was just so obsessed with him that point of time (Lol) and couldn't let go. Instead, I continued being there for him when he needs me or just to kill his boredom. I could tell that friends around me were disappointed in me because I didn't keep my promise in moving on instead pushing myself off the edge day by day.

The ambiguous relationship status drained a lot of my energy. Emotionally and physically. All I thought was having to get him back but i doubt i'm even on his mind for even a pathetic 1 second.

It on and off relationship was dragged from Nov 08 to July 09. After a wake up call from Wallace.

I woke up from my dream. The guy who once put you as priority will no longer does the same. The guy who once treated you like a princess will treat you as a thrash from now on.

"You have your persistence, i've my needs". i'll never forget this hurtful sentence. A guy who sees his needs more important that me.

I regret for falling so deep but on a lighter note, i'd learnt a lot from this relationship. Of course, i paid a heavy price.

i didn't walked out of this on my own. i'm not that strong. i'd suicidal thoughts at the very beginning. thankfully, words that my friends told me came to my mind. I really thank them for that.

3 close friends of mine pulled me through. Wallace, Neth and Chonghan. They saw me at my worse. No motivation for anything. Luckily, Os was over and i was working at that time.

I dragged myself to work. Time spent at work was tormenting. I could remember how many sms i spammed Neth while at work using Singtel free sms. LOL It was pathetic because the free sms is only 20 and i'd to continue using my phone to sms him to kill time.

Wallace, the savior of my life. He practically went through the whole process with me. Giving me advices and ways to walk out of the hard path ahead of me. Of course, Reverse Psychology which worked.

Chonghan, who is harsher and more straight forward knocked sense into me. As and when he'd make me recall of the cruelty of him which will make me dump the thought of giving him another chance.

These are the people that i'll be grateful of. If not for them, i think i'll still be in the small, retarded, blind world, thinking that he'd change for me.

Now, here am I, in another chapter of my life, moving on smoothly and happily (:

I bid-goodbye my past.

MSN'S A BITCH!

i downloaded flash player for like 4 times but this window still pops out everytime i log into msn =.= ANYONE KNOWS HOW TO SOLVE IT?!

msn webcam's settings made our laptops hang. i'd to FORCE restart it for 3 times. finally today, i found out the problem.....

MSN SUCKS!

the imba conversation between the both of them.

ONG MEIYAN IS A RETARDED BITCH!

after school, waited for meiyan to end class. while waiting, ivan BOLDLY came into my class! i was shocked because i didnt expect him to come in =.= we were talking crap of cos. LOL

oh yeah, biology sucks today.

btw, i got a D for last week's lesson because my laptop wasn't with me and that somehow gives the faci a nice excuse to give me a D. FTW!

currently waiting for kh to miss call me if he wants so that i can call him. shall wait till 11pm then go to sleep.

oh hell. its physics tomorrow!

Casper's cat hat. he bought from AFA =)

friendly ghost sleeping. LOL

jingkai! teaming with him is so fun! he's stella's friend too. LOL

world is just so small.

i wish i could blog longer but my bed is calling me.

LASTLY, i've confirmed that kh has recovered because he went out. and now, i'm sick.

so we are taking turns to fall sick. imba.

Rants

i'm feeling irritated and frustrated this very minute. moreover, headache strikes me.

i HATE people asking me the same question over and over again.

i dont care if you are my friend or family, i will just show how irritated i'm right at your face.

i dont think anyone loves people asking them the same question over and over again right?

why cant people just fucking remember what they've asked?

I'M NOT a street directory. if you want to go somewhere, just check it out yourself. the most ridiculous thing is you are still asking me when i said i-don't-know.

which word in i-don't-know do you not understand?

I'M NOT A ENTERTAINER FOR GODDAMN SAKE!

I'm using the purple font.

what a fucktard.

	hey ahhhhhhh boringgggg
	haha hello
	haha got watch any movies recently? very nice leh the new movies
	lol super long sia that movie watch christmas carol la
	see how
	wah very cold leh you ok la nvm...bye
	wad u wan me to say of cos tel u see how la den wad ltr go watch issit
	no la nvm haha..

i got my pay!

and i'm waking up at freaking 5am tomorrow to work at chinese garden for Grandparents day.

I'VE TO REACH AT 6.15AM! THE FIRST BUS IS 0555!

goodgame and goodluck to me. LOL

ok i shall go sleep.